- Shannon du Fresne
- Aug 16
- 14 min read
I started writing this blog entry on the 29/7/2019, after my past life regression on the 20/06/2019 and I hesitated... as I could not finish it. I am only picking this up again now, on the 16/08/2025, because I did not understand it properly until now. There was also more to play out in between. And I am ready to share this with you now.
I had my palm read in 2016, and the medium suggested that I explore 'Past life regression', because I had a 'very old soul' and it could be beneficial to look into, she said. Having never heard the term before, I began to ask about what 'Past life regression' was, and what it meant. She said unfortunately she did not have time to explain it all then, in detail, but I could look it up online.
After investigating further I found that: Past life regression (also known as Quantum Healing Technique), is a process by which one can delve into past lives through hypnosis and understand the root cause of issues which are holding you back today, to allow you to release yourself from those issues. I have always understood life to be eternal, and although I grew up without a religious background, my mother always taught me from a young age that a body was just a shell for the soul. I often felt that I'd been on this earthly plane, many times before. A lot of my writing and channeled writing from my younger years, focused a lot on reincarnation and feelings related to this. This resonated with me deeply, so I added it to my 'spiritual bucket list' I had started a year earlier, and continued on exploring the rest of my list.
A year later I began to have reoccurring dreams of a house I had previously visited in my dream state during my younger years. These dreams were so vivid, the landscapes so detailed, and the people in them all so familiar, yet nothing I'd ever experienced in my physical life. I'd wake up mourning these places, these people whom I had never seen before yet I knew so well. I started to again think about the concept of past life regression, that I had discussed with the medium one year earlier, as I wondered if these were memories of lives I'd previously lived. Excitedly I found a past life regressionist in my area, that I felt a connection to. After seeing the price, although I knew in time I would do this, some of the urgency died.
At the end of that year I had a trip to Hawaii, a place in which I have always felt so connected. I would definitely say Hawaii is where a piece of my soul resides. In the months after this trip, I kept having these new reoccurring dreams, of a little studio like apartment in Hawaii. I had never been to this place, nor seen it before in this life, yet it was all so familiar. It was so detailed I could tell you where everything was and exactly what if looked like, smelled like, felt like. Sometimes I'd wake up in a semi conscious state, asking my then husband if we had locked the door, in the holiday home in Hawaii. When I was in Hawaii in 2018, I had this sense of wanting to jump off the balcony in the hotel and I could not understand or explain it.
I was so guided by this vision like dream, I can honestly tell you that I started to explore the idea of buying a holiday home in Hawaii. After delving further, I started to ponder the concept of perhaps a spirit trying to contact me, who once lived in this house, that was haunting my dreams (as I have experienced a lot of situations like this, that have become more of a paranormal investigation in each occurrence, which I plan to share more of in time). At one point I even thought I had found the house on a Hawaiian real estate website, I felt so sure I even contacted the agent and started to 'investigate' it's history only resulting in dead ends.
Life went on some more.. and I forgot all about it, until I was sitting in circle, catching up with my Reiki tribe sisters (a bunch of beautiful souls that I did my Reiki training alongside) The topic of Past life regression came up, and one of the girls started telling me about a great book called "Many lives, many masters", by Brian Weiss and someone else in the circle who had also read it recommended it too. I made a mental note to read this book sometime.
9 months after I first heard about the book Many lives many masters, I was in a bookstore in New Zealand, and I saw the book on a shelf, so I brought it. I had the book in my possession for about 3 months, before I actually read it. After reading the first chapter, I finished the book in less than a week. After reading this book, I went on to read three more of Brian's books.
In the words of subhamoy Das; "Many lives many masters is the true story of a prominent psychiatrist, his young patient, and the past-life therapy that changed both their lives. As a traditional psychotherapist, Dr. Brian Weiss, M.D., graduating Phi Beta Kappa, from Columbia University and Yale Medical School, spent years in the disciplined study of human psychology, training his mind to think like a scientist and a physician. He held steadfastly to conservatism in his profession, distrusting anything that could not be proved by traditional scientific methods. But then 1980 he met a 27-year old patient, Catherine, who came to his office seeking help for her anxiety, panic attacks, and phobias. Dr. Weiss was soon taken aback at what unfolded in the therapy sessions and jolted out of his conventional psychiatric thinking. For 18 months, Dr. Weiss used conventional methods of treatment to try and help Catherine overcome her traumas. When nothing seemed to work, he tried hypnosis, which he had found to be “an excellent tool to help a patient remember long-forgotten incidents.
In a series of trance-like states, Catherine recalled “past life memories that proved to be the causative factors of her recurring nightmares and anxiety attack symptoms. She remembered “living 86 times in physical state” in different places, both as male and female. She vividly recalled the details of each birth: her name, her family, physical appearance, the landscape, and how she was killed by stabbing, by drowning or illness. And in each lifetime, she experiences myriad events “making progress... to fulfill all of the agreements and all of the Karmic debts that are owed. Dr. Weiss’s skepticism was further eroded when she began to channel messages from “the space between lives," messages from the many Masters (highly evolved souls not presently in a body) that also contained remarkable revelations about his own family and his dead son that Catherine could not possibly have known. Many Lives, Many Masters makes for an irresistible read and, like Dr. Weiss, we too come to realize that "life is more than meets the eye. Life goes beyond our five senses.
Here are some of the teachings from the voices of the Master Spirits:
We have to be on “different planes at different times. Each one is a level of higher consciousness. What plane we go to depends upon how far we’ve progressed. . . ”
“We must share our knowledge with other people. We all have abilities far beyond what we use. . . . you should check your vices. . . if you do not, you carry them over with you to another life. . . when you decide you are strong enough to master the external problems, then you will no longer have them in your next life.”
“When we are sent back, it’s like being sent back to something we do not know. In the spirit world you have to wait, and then you are renewed. It’s a dimension like the other dimensions... "We have “lived countless times before and would live countless times again. . . and spirits are around us to help while in physical state and after death, in spiritual state.” We and our deceased loved ones would join these guardian angels.
“Acts of violence and injustices against people do not go unnoted, but is repaid in kind in another lifetime.”
After death “we get to the spiritual plane, we keep growing there, too. When we arrive, we’re burned out. We have to go through a renewal stage, a learning stage, and a stage of decision. We decide when we want to return, where, and for what reasons... Our body is just a vehicle for us while we’re here. It is our soul and our spirit that last forever... ”
Dr. Weiss came to believe that under hypnosis, Catherine was able to focus in on the part of her subconscious mind that stored actual past-life memories or perhaps had tapped into what the psychoanalyst Carl Jung termed the Collective Unconscious, the energy source that surrounds us containing the memories of the entire human race.
Once I had finished the third Brian Weiss book, something in me switched.... I wasn't going to wait any longer I booked in with the regressionist I had felt connected to a year earlier. She had a heavy schedule and it took a few months to get an appointment but it was well worth the wait.
A week before the appointment, during a meditation I had a native Indian like man step forward with a parrot who was royal blue, red, yellow and green. Like most visions, I did not really know what it meant at the time. I have a strong connection with spirit animals, parrots and birds in particular, there were a lot around me in the physical at that time as well.
I excitedly arrived at the appointment, with my list of questions, things to explore and a open mind in great anticipation of what was to come.
The appointment was a 3-4 hour session, the first 90 minutes were spent in consultation. I told her about the dreams I had experienced, sharing that I longed to learn about my dharma, what lessons I had to work on towards my liberation, and how to further my goals of enlightenment. I also told her I wanted to explore the complicated relationship that I had with my father in this life, so that I could finally understand why, and where it came from, as I did not understand why we had so much conflict, and wondered, was it from a past life?.
My regressionist is also a medium, and as soon as I sat down, she told me she that she recognised my sensitivities too. During the consultation she shared that I had 5 guides; one was a Court jester, who sees the world with good eyes, helps me see into people and brings out my cheeky side. A serious king who takes no fools, and tells me to banish what doesn't align. A beautiful Mary like feminine figure, doing this with her hands (she moved her hands in a position similar to how ones hands are placed in a Reiki Attunement) she brings compassion, and softens the blow of the serious kings guidance so it is not so blunt as it is delivered. A man with a blue face, he's the part that assists, with connections between the dimensions. And a powerful Indian guide named Rahu with a parrot, she was sweating bullets physically as he came through with so much energy. She said when I was ready Rahu would send me a bird.
"Ww What colour is the parrot I stammered?", "He's blue, blue with rainbow colors. "What kind of blue I asked?", "Navy blue she said". I hadn't shared my vision of the Indian guide, and parrot I had seen in my meditation the week before. Once the regression started she called Rahu in to guide me through. She paused. Actually this parrot is not navy blue, he is royal blue she said. You have a team of animal spirits, not just on this side but on the other side too, you are very very powerful, you have him behind you. She explains that I have a connection with the animal realm, and animals in spirit. She also says I will have my own bird that will come to me when I am ready (I will explain more of how this fits in and makes sense in future blogs in time).
She started with a visualisation meditation, and I felt so relaxed, and slowly she started regressing me back through lifetimes. Even though I was mostly under hypnosis I was still aware of what was going on. My conscious mind kept dipping in at times to question things, at those times my regressionist asked my subconscious mind, to step in and guide my conscious mind to wait in the corner.
I found myself in a forest, as a man I wearing a robe, and I could see the material so clearly, and I had moccasins on my feet. She was asking me questions, I did not always know the answers to, and I didn't want to force anything. When I listen back to the recordings there are long pauses at times. I seemed to be trying to get away and hide from a group of people on horses, I felt threatened by this group, it was like I didn't want to be part of what they were doing so I had run away. Later in that scene I was taken to, I seemed to go deeper in to the forest, and I was able to lose those people. She took me to a important day in that life, I was grey now with a beard, I was alone and feeling free. She asked if there was anyone important in this life, anyone I was close to, "a lady" I said. Who is this lady she asked? without hesitation I said 'It's my husband from this life" I feel like she is really loving and I'm pushing her away. "Is there a reason why you are doing this?" the regressionist asks, "I want to be on my own, I am happy on my own" I say. My lady partner is understanding and respectful of my needs, to be on my own, and even though she is aware of it, it doesn't bother her. Looking at it from here I feel like I shouldn't have pushed her away and I wasted time not spending it with her and my children. I didn't realise it at the time. It feels like she is part of the community and he isolates himself from them. She took me to my last day in this life, He was sick, and died suddenly of natural causes, alone. She takes me to the point just before I leave his body and I look down and see his body. I felt like I was watching what was happening, but like I knew that it was me I was watching, whereas in the beginning I was in his body.
I only realised it now in 2025, after my marriage ended, in 2020 and following the years of therapy, that I had almost been put in a position, where I was my dad, and my ex-husband, and I had switched roles to understand how they felt and why they shut me out. It doesn't matter if it was a past life, of mine or not, because my higher self was giving me the answers that I was seeking. Even if I could not comprehend them at the time. I understand these dynamics now.
She leads me on a journey 'back to source' and I describe a warm feeling, and a bright light with colours of dark red and purple. She asks permission, to speak to my subconscious, and asks what I had to learn from this life. Once he ran away from those people, he was happy and free and connected to the earth and nature, he felt so content at the time. He knew the family were there, but he didn't take the time to connect with them I concluded. At the time he didn't feel as disconnected, as what I was shown, yet could see looking back. It was like we had switched roles in this life to bring back balance.
She says again, you are so very very powerful Shannon, then she asks this.. And says "Don't answer this if you can't', and I couldn't. I paused after she asked it, and it went unanswered. I can only answer it now, after 6 more years have passed. She asks "Are you worried about emasculating your husband with your power? do you control your power, so that it not be overwhelming for him?". She then asks me, if I would like to see the soul contract of myself and my (now ex) husband, I see a sunrise with a lot of light around it, and she asks me what it symbolises "New beginnings" I say. It was like my higher self was telling me what was about to happen, even if I did not know at the time. Is the contract about allowing new beginnings for each other? I say "yes".
I start talking about how sacrifice is going to play an important part in my journey, in this life, sacrificing the things I don't want, and I feel that this part is only starting to play out now, and will progress more in time. And we talk about the discomfort of sacrifice some more. I talk about a degree of selfishness, I have in this life also. We talk more about my loneliness from my childhood, and the self sufficiency that surrounded that, and the learnings of needing to integrate more with others. And we discussed the trouble, and drama my younger years brought, which I also now understand more now through therapy, was me growing up as a non neurotypical child, in the 1980's, where it was widely dismissed, and unrecognised. I was misunderstood and punished for being different so I acted out a lot. We talk about it, being safe now for me to be authentic and share myself instead of withdrawing.
At 111 minutes into the recording, I start talking about it not needing to save everyone, that it is not my place. And if I met anyone toxic again (which later I did years after this recording) I said, that I would be unharmed ,and I need to trust that more. I won't try and save them this time, I will let them be, and this is exactly how the situation played out. I also said that I need to share my light with those that are toxic, and I don't need to try and save them, nor turn them away.
She then asks my subconscious about the houses I have visited in my dreams, and describes each one, as I did to her in the consultation. She asks about the three storey house on the hill by the sea, that I felt uncomfortable in, and asks why I felt uncomfortable in the house, "because people had died there" I say, and she asks why I was shown that dream and I say that it was about the connection I have in the spirit world.
She takes me to the studio in Hawaii, with the inbuilt shelves, and the sense of the feeling of abandonment in this place is present. I am a man in this life as well, and asks me 'was this an actual life that I've had?' and I say 'NO' then 'maybe'. She asks why then was I was shown it, and what it represents, and why was I so anxious that the door may not be locked. This chapter resonates so deeply, and painfully now, and brought me to tears today, relistening to the recording. The life ended early, by the mans choice, hence the sensation of wanting to jump from the balcony, on my 2018 visit to Hawaii. Something I am so against in this life as I have more of a spiritual understanding of it, in that it doesn't end our pain, we would only continue it with us, in our consciousness, and as I learned; we re experience the same pain, in many lifetimes until we heal it. As she guided me to lay next to this mans body as I spoke to him as my higher self to heal him.
She calls in Rahul to lead me out of the hypnosis, Rahul is half bird she said. She saw a condor, like an eagle. Which I now understand to be the Channel billed cuckoo, which stepped in as a guide only from 2021 and I will share more on this later.
There were books there in this studio, and she asked, what one of them was, I say 'Thesis' I was writing something, there was a blank piece of paper and I hadn't started it, yet it was very modern paper. As I write this, I understand it to have correlation with me writing this very piece as I am now, and as I will continue to share in time. I talk about the birds, and all the nature around me, the birds, and the ocean as I understand. And I talk about not doing what I was previously anymore which has resonated more in recent weeks, regarding my spiritual work.
She also asks me if there is any behaviors from this life that I have brought with me into Shannon's life,
"yes the solitude" I say and the content I feel in being alone. My subconsciousness tells me that I need more connection, and to share my contentment with others, instead of keeping my light contained, it needs to be shared. And in this space that is exactly that I intend to do.
